stephen gately of boyzone has passed on.. he's the reason y i like boyzone in the first place.. althou he's gay.. i kinda somewhat knew it.. he was too boyish for his age.. anw, may he rest in peace.. such a humble guy.. tis yr is nt reali the best yr.. i hope there wun b any more death..

dwn wf one last paper to write but gt 3 more major tests!! maths, 2 science.. and 4 exams after.. when i'm accompanying bb, n c others out studying.. i feel guilty.. bt if i dun accompany bb during wkends, i feel guilty too.. we hardly spend time together during the wkdaz.. tink thats the diff b/w a dependent, unmarried student who's living wf their parents n a married student.. oh well.. 8 more mths to go!

i hope everything will go well in His name.. kinda hving doubts abt it.. bt i really do pray that i hv favour wf the new team, new head..

Thanks to everyone who came dwn last nite and make it possible.. and to my church mates who oso celebrated it twice wf him on friday nite.. =) reali appreciate it.. thou i was expecting more food.. =P and more enthusiasm abt the game.. =( so sad.. no one appreciates my tot.. wished feli was there.. at least gt backing.. and at least xiwen n dree supported me.. thou like nt willing oso.. next time wun organise le.. =~( nonetheles, thanks for the great company after.. and the cake.. =) and singing bday song for my mum as well.. xiwen, u scared me than scared bb la.. ha~

looking forward to spending the actual day wf him.. =)

Kukop was great!! hehe~ thank god for the short getaway.. i tink i reali needed it.. =) thou the bus ride back wasnt all that great, everything else was splendid! =D special thanks to dree n wen of cos.. plan the next trip soon!! hehe~ cheap n gd ya.. no $..

assignments due dates r drawing near.. n its piling up.. bt i keep tellin myself, ai zai.. steady.. no wories.. slow n steady wins the race.. jz need to keep pressing on.. a gd portion a day is sufficient for me to be on the right track.. dun wana stress myself le.. makes me happier tat way.. =P

i dun tink i handle stress v well.. my fren told me i hv 2 exams on one day, another 2 exams on another day.. i freaked out on the spot.. called my lecturer in-charge, nt much she can do abt it.. uni policy.. i cried in the canteen.. wf my classmates ard me.. they too freaked out when they saw me cry.. onli me and another classmate hv that kind of timing due to our combi.. one in the morning n one in the noon.. hw am i gg to give my best in dat kind of condition.. worse when neuro n physio on the same day.. jz the tot of it nw makes me teary again.. even when my fren tried to encourage me today make me teary.. i jz cant think abt the consequences of it.. i've worked so hard last yr to gt 2nd upper.. if its tis dat makes me fall below 2nd upper, i'm so gona cry my eyes out.. its jz nt fair..

bb tried to encourage when i gt hm.. he kept saying 'bb's so hardworkin.. no wories bb.. when i was in nus, i didnt even study as much as bb..' i told him the privilege of studyin in uni doesnt come ez for me, he had it all pathed out for him.. of cos i take it more personally and putting in the extra effort..

when my classmate (a dip guy who crossed over to the degree prog like me) came n consoled me today, i told him the exact same ting i told bb. he replied 'dat's v motivating jess..' we're both in the same shoe and tis is y all 9 of us in the class (all frm diploma cross-over to degree) r v grateful for where we are nw.. and dat's y all of us r hard workers.. i reali wish i hv more time.. i reali wish my efforts dun go to waste jz bcos of bad timing..

had a reali great trg wf euphoria.. so proud of my girl bases!! they manage to do so much within a short period of time!! =D and tiff only started tis yr!! reali lookin forward to next yr's comp for them.. hopefuli they'll be able to pull it off.. =)

i cant say much bout the rest.. too many mid-tiers and no top.. i nid to hv more joannas.. =( n all v new mid-tiers.. they're consistent bt no guy bases to train wf them.. damm sianz to c situations like tis. bt anw, their huge improvement drives me to go dwn even more! hopefuli i can afford the time stil.. jiayou!

tink i'm gona pull out all of my hair soon.. so much work and assignments!! i'm freakin stressed out.. thank god for weekends.. no matter wad, i'll force myself to chill still.. bt seriously.. i duno if i can take the stress.. and thank god for bb.. he's been really understanding tis past week.. n he reali did give me a surprise yesterday. he bought me the new book, 'the last song' by my fav author, nicholas sparks!! =D i'm so so happy!! actuali i told him, let's go sans bookstore at vivo on saturday so tat i can gt the bk at a cheaper price and can return it n gt bc my deposit once i'm done with it.. bt i didnt noe dat he wud go ahead n gt it for me.. so sweet.. its the first time in our 5 yrs dat he bought me a book.. i'm reali touched. =) u guys hv no idea hw much it meant to me..

anw, our dear darryl tay is finali growing up.. he's getting married for real tis time.. no more break-ups with the gf na.. ha~ maybe he can teach her hw to play mj n we'll hv more avail kah! or better stil, someone buy me another mj set la! =P then again, i told dree n wen i probably stop mj-ing when i'm pregnant.. i duno.. i dun wana b a bad influence.. den again, my auntie mj all the time since my cuz were born.. and they turn out fine! hmm..

tink darryl wud hv inform u guys by nw.. friday potluck at my place.. cya guys den~! (dat makes the 4th wedding tis yr.. poor bb..)