Hear me Roar

cheezels is shaved.. i've bought 3 mags - her world, cleo au, hot.. cleaned the hse and cleared some stuff.. ltr today gg dwn to ajc then ijc.. the whole day is packed.. tmr gg sentosa then butter fac!! =) wad am i going to do for the next 3 mths.. i'm thinking getting cookbook.. dance lessons perhaps.. gym??.. anyway, people reading tis.. ask me out pls.. bb stil gt a mth to go before his holiday.. cant wait for our bkk trip..

Yea!! from today onwards, time will past v v quickly!! mwhaha~ cant wait.. i'm almost counting down to the hours til my end of exams.. =P not tat i'm tat confident.. confirm can pass.. just whether can do well is another thing.. i noe my facts.. i think.. just need to give that extra boost like wad bb said.. hmm.. 18 hrs to my tuesday paper.. there's stil time for alil more revision..

dk's hse's v nice!! too bad wen nt there.. ha~ we took some pics hopefuli feli wil upload it soon.. dav looked like the ah gong of the family.. mario's damm cute.. and the tiles damm nice to play with!

Clay! someone manage to do toss up chair to single ex with me!! un-assisted!! ha~ cant wait to see who can do cupie with me first.. mwhaha~ it was so fun!

my fav classmate is in usa nw and he gt his first tattoo~! on a wrist!! for a teacher.. i duno hw he's gona hide it.. gt guts.. i want one on my wrist too.. he's my fav cos he's like cool.. and mature.. doesnt behave the same like the rest.. trains with nat softball team.. he's uber cool la.. and he's gona get cheer stuff for me frm the states! woot! cant wait.. hehe~

One paper down, 2 to go.. wasnt too bad.. i was quite well-prepared for this i think.. bt duno if it'll be equally good for physio and biomech.. just got home.. gota start studying now i guess.. hopefuli cheez wil stop barking..

Finali, monday's my first paper and i'm so looking forward to it. I duno hw well i'll do.. after talking to my lecturer, he said if i dun do more research on my own, i'll probably get a B or B+.. when i heard that, i was like 'hmm.. is that gd enuf for me?'.. that same night, bb was like 'doesnt matter.. jz put in the effort u tink is right..' i've been aimin for my 2nd upper since the first day and 1 yr into it, reali feel like giving up.. i noe my 2 sports modules shd give me an A.. so that's 2 As out of 7 modules.. if my 2 science modules get A oso, den i can relax abit.. bt i duno hw's it gona go.. =(

I am a lot happier since me and bb talked it out. =) Thank God i didnt give up then. I wouldnt noe wad to do if I really did. Think i'm focusing on all the wrong things. Now, i only study 12 hours a day. The rest of it when bb is back home, i'll spend some quality time with him.

My nephew Dylan came over today. He is just the cutest boy ever.. I want one too.. but not the time yet.. sigh.

If one day i'm gone, will u miss me?..
Will u regret the day saying things that u shouldn't have?..
U reali do think that I'm dat ignorant to u?.. Do i not care?..
Disappointment has found a new low in me.
Nt motivated to do anyting.
Dun even wana talk to u.. for who noes wad may start again..
Nw i noe wad pushes one to commit suicide.
The thought did cross my mind.
Perhaps its all for the better.. to join my grand-pa who i misses so so badly.
Nw i'm tearing again.. nt bcos of u, bt bcos of ah-gong..

Ah-gong,
I miss all those simpler times.. when u fetch me frm sch..
gave me sweets.. gave me coins to buy more sweets..
alwaz paid attention to me thou i babble non-stop abt my pri sch frenz u had nv seen..