Hear me Roar

Kukop was great!! hehe~ thank god for the short getaway.. i tink i reali needed it.. =) thou the bus ride back wasnt all that great, everything else was splendid! =D special thanks to dree n wen of cos.. plan the next trip soon!! hehe~ cheap n gd ya.. no $..

assignments due dates r drawing near.. n its piling up.. bt i keep tellin myself, ai zai.. steady.. no wories.. slow n steady wins the race.. jz need to keep pressing on.. a gd portion a day is sufficient for me to be on the right track.. dun wana stress myself le.. makes me happier tat way.. =P

i dun tink i handle stress v well.. my fren told me i hv 2 exams on one day, another 2 exams on another day.. i freaked out on the spot.. called my lecturer in-charge, nt much she can do abt it.. uni policy.. i cried in the canteen.. wf my classmates ard me.. they too freaked out when they saw me cry.. onli me and another classmate hv that kind of timing due to our combi.. one in the morning n one in the noon.. hw am i gg to give my best in dat kind of condition.. worse when neuro n physio on the same day.. jz the tot of it nw makes me teary again.. even when my fren tried to encourage me today make me teary.. i jz cant think abt the consequences of it.. i've worked so hard last yr to gt 2nd upper.. if its tis dat makes me fall below 2nd upper, i'm so gona cry my eyes out.. its jz nt fair..

bb tried to encourage when i gt hm.. he kept saying 'bb's so hardworkin.. no wories bb.. when i was in nus, i didnt even study as much as bb..' i told him the privilege of studyin in uni doesnt come ez for me, he had it all pathed out for him.. of cos i take it more personally and putting in the extra effort..

when my classmate (a dip guy who crossed over to the degree prog like me) came n consoled me today, i told him the exact same ting i told bb. he replied 'dat's v motivating jess..' we're both in the same shoe and tis is y all 9 of us in the class (all frm diploma cross-over to degree) r v grateful for where we are nw.. and dat's y all of us r hard workers.. i reali wish i hv more time.. i reali wish my efforts dun go to waste jz bcos of bad timing..

had a reali great trg wf euphoria.. so proud of my girl bases!! they manage to do so much within a short period of time!! =D and tiff only started tis yr!! reali lookin forward to next yr's comp for them.. hopefuli they'll be able to pull it off.. =)

i cant say much bout the rest.. too many mid-tiers and no top.. i nid to hv more joannas.. =( n all v new mid-tiers.. they're consistent bt no guy bases to train wf them.. damm sianz to c situations like tis. bt anw, their huge improvement drives me to go dwn even more! hopefuli i can afford the time stil.. jiayou!

tink i'm gona pull out all of my hair soon.. so much work and assignments!! i'm freakin stressed out.. thank god for weekends.. no matter wad, i'll force myself to chill still.. bt seriously.. i duno if i can take the stress.. and thank god for bb.. he's been really understanding tis past week.. n he reali did give me a surprise yesterday. he bought me the new book, 'the last song' by my fav author, nicholas sparks!! =D i'm so so happy!! actuali i told him, let's go sans bookstore at vivo on saturday so tat i can gt the bk at a cheaper price and can return it n gt bc my deposit once i'm done with it.. bt i didnt noe dat he wud go ahead n gt it for me.. so sweet.. its the first time in our 5 yrs dat he bought me a book.. i'm reali touched. =) u guys hv no idea hw much it meant to me..

anw, our dear darryl tay is finali growing up.. he's getting married for real tis time.. no more break-ups with the gf na.. ha~ maybe he can teach her hw to play mj n we'll hv more avail kah! or better stil, someone buy me another mj set la! =P then again, i told dree n wen i probably stop mj-ing when i'm pregnant.. i duno.. i dun wana b a bad influence.. den again, my auntie mj all the time since my cuz were born.. and they turn out fine! hmm..

tink darryl wud hv inform u guys by nw.. friday potluck at my place.. cya guys den~! (dat makes the 4th wedding tis yr.. poor bb..)

Home on a saturday nite. Jz came bc from twn wf bb, wen n dree. bb at a groom's entourage meeting.. wen at work now.. dree at movies.. me, at home working on my assignments. me n bb gg to the zoo tmr!! teacher's day week, gt free entry to zoo wf civil servant card! =) last yr was the sg flyer.. hehe~ once a yr perk for being a tcher.

anw, it was a gd nite today! gt to watch lion dance comp.. =) i always tell myself, if i weren't a cheerleader, i'll probably b in a lion or dragon dance troupe.. i love watching the lion and dragon come 'alive'! they're so pro and well, its still stunting in a way.. haha! bt yea, they're damm cool! the way they leap ard on the pole, the coordination, the trust in their partner.. its everything that's so captivating! hmm, lets hope that there's a lion dance troupe in henry park so tat i can try my hands on it next yr!! =D

bb says, we watch lion tonite.. tmr gona see lion again.. haha~! funny rite.. =P

BB has been really thoughtful.. he cooked soup for me to reboil it for tmr's lunch b4 i head out for sch.. tink he oso realise the missing numbers of instant noodles too.. =P he asked for my ezlink card n topped it up for me.. he checked my purse to make sure there's sufficient cash in it.. i hope tis aint seasonal.. i noe he pays extra concern after a big fight.. bt after some time, he may 'forgt' abt me again.. i dun reali mind bout the finance part.. cos i can reali save. (i noe thou it may nt sound like me.. i eat b4 i go to sch, i onli drink from water cooler.. if there's a long day, i make sure i try nt to spend more than $3 on food.. unless i'm reali hungry.) it doesnt sound all bad.. tis onli jz goes to shw hw much all of us can reali save! if onli i had done tis earlier, i'll b v much richer nw. i reali dun nid tat extra pink pen, i dun nid that sweetened drink, i dun nid to eat western food that cost $4.50.. oh well.. i hope i dun go bc to my old ways when i gt paid again next May.. =P

bottom line is, tis post is nt abt savings. its jz my wish for bb to be tis loving all the time. i noe its hard. i nid to do my part as well. i jz hope we dun go dwn 'tat road' again..